The fear of not being good enough.

I’m going to quote Brene Brown – “Shame is the most powerful emotion. It’s the fear that we are not good enough”

Reading this was hard. It had the same effect as rubbing salt into a wound. This hurt, really hurt.

I am the forever saying-sorry-person. When, or should I say, if I can get out of the house, I change my clothes at least three times. Because no matter what outfit I put on I still feel ashamed. I don’t start a conversation with anybody because I always feel such a bore. I follow my husband around like a sick puppy. And at conversations I nod like a monkey that gets a penny. I am so ashamed of myself its even hard for me to say it out loud because of what you might think of me.

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The making of “Follow you own path”

What was the inspiration?

This image was made after I was daydreaming I guess. I literally got the picture in mind. Next step was to figure out how I was going to make it. I needed to get the perspective of the model right to make it believable. So I asked the model if she would mind to pose and a high chair, on one leg with the other leg balancing on a rope. Read More »

The making of “Sometimes home is a person”

What was the inspiration?

This image is made for the series ’Tea tags’ I made together with Norma.
Inspired by labels with questions that a tea make has bound to it’s teabags. For a whole year, Norma saved the labels from the teabags. Each month I had to choose one question that was on them. Norma and I used the questions for inspiration, which I interpreted freely.

The question for ‘Sometimes home is a person’ was ‘what was the last thing you thought about last night?’.Read More »

Quack

Here did it all start.
I was teaching a Adobe Photoshop course and I wanted the students to learn blending modes and color in a fun way.  One day I found a bunch of black and white images and thought this would be the answer to my quest.
So I stared colouring, masking and playing with the image. Making a serious photograph of a goose stepping soldier into a fun half waterbird half soldier. 

 

Quack
– Quack – © Sabrina M – 2015 –

 

Bound together

Bounded-together
– Bound together – © Sabrina M – 2018 –

The have a dark skin but their names are Flemish.
A journey from warm beautiful Ethiopia brought them here.
Seen as strangers in the land they live in, seen as strangers in the land they come from.
They have one advantage, they are forever bounded to each other.

This is something I tried to show in this commission piece. The bare, misty Belgian landscape opposite the rock they float on. They float between their homeland and birth land.

Leave a comment and let me know how you feel about the image, about adopting or the love between a brother and sister. I’d love to hear.

The mystery of the hidden secrets.

Throwback Thursday.

This is one of the first images I created back in 2015.
The inspiration for this image is rather obvious isn’t it? The Anthropomorphic Cabinet of Salvador Dalí, he used the drawers as a symbol of mystery but also sexuality.
My vision here was to portray a woman with all her secrets she wants to keep hidden. Chancing the color of the grass from green to purple was a conscious decision as I wanted the picture to have something mysterious.

The mystery of the hidden secrets. ©️Sabrina M - 2015

The mystery of the hidden secrets. ©️Sabrina M – 2015

How would you portray this topic? Would you have chosen an other color? What do you see in the image?

Quirky and amazing Chirstmas gift

 

This little quirky book is the history of the family Bell. I can guarantee you, they are quiet unique.
The whole family has about 19 pictures and I made a small coffee table book with them, spiced with little stories and fun facts about the person.
The book is set up like a family tree, so you can browse and search for the family connection.

Read about there unique stories.

It’s a translating of a childhood fantasy of having an interested family.

I spend hours browsing old pictures in search of a portrait that could become a new member go the family tree.
Once a portrait is found, the imagination kicks in, adding props and colours, slowly building the character and persona. Using Photoshop to digital hand-colour and manipulate images to make then fun, quirky and surreal.
I often use my own genealogy as a guide to get the dates right, couldn’t have a family tree where the mum is older than grandma.

This is an absolute great little gift for a friend or yourself.

You can now order “The perfectly bizarre and fake Family Bell’ in Etsy only €35 or $40 shipping included.

Why not give someone something different as a present, they will love it and certainly put a smile on their face.
The perfectly bizarre and fake Family Bell on Etsy

Where do I see myself in a year?

To be honest, I never think about the future very much. I hardly make plans, I just “go with the flow”. Not a very good tactic, I know. I never expected anything from my art. I started it to keep my mind busy and perhaps relief from all the negative stuff from the past. (As you can read here in a previous blog post)

But then about two years ago I got the question “would you like to exhibit your work here?” I felt so honoured people actually wanted to see my work that I didn’t hesitate for one second. In all my excitement I forgot the expenses it would involve. Without prints, no exhibition. Without frames, no beautiful presentation of the prints…. you get the picture. But my husband supported me and said “go for it, grab your chance, it’s perhaps a once in a lifetime”

So my first prints got made, a whole adventure in itself which I will blog on later and my first show was a fact. A permanent mark in my own little history, you know something to tell your grandchildren. 😉

That same year I found a little gallery near Bruges that was willing to exhibit my work and I sold my first fine art print. I can’t even describe how I felt. People didn’t only wanted to see my work, they also found it good enough and the images had enough emotion that they were willing to put it on their wall. I was flabbergasted, what an honour and truly humbling experience.

One thing lead to another and in 2018 I got accepted to 10 shows. 5 in the USA (a big achievement for a European), two shows in France, Paris and Arles (I mean the thought of being on show in Paris and Arles still gives me the shivers and goosebumps) and three shows in Belgium, one being a solo (little me, a solo? Still can’t believe it)

In 2018 I sold 15 pieces, yes I still have to pinch myself to believe it. I also made a little quirky book and sold a few.

So how can I set goals for 2019? I already achieved so much more than I ever could of dreamed off. I’ve already accomplished more than I ever thought would be possible. My depression is a thing from the past now. I’ve never been happier in my life and with my life as I am today. So what more do I want? Nothing really.

But the topic of this blog post is “where do you see yourself in a year?” So I’ll forced myself to make a little list.

My fine art

  • To have the same amount of shows I had this year.
  • Being represented by a gallery, although I have no clue how I could achieve this
  • Make new work no matter what my health is like and don’t let pain problems get in the way.
  • Do some commission work

The surreal Passé composé series

  • Sell “The perfectly bizarre and fake Family Bell” in a bookstore.
  • Make a new series around a new theme.
  • Do some commission work “pop surreal style”.

Personal goals

Have the courage to have the treatment that might help with my chronic pains and however scary it will be trust the doctors to solves the back pain issues due to all sorts of stuff so I can finally devoted more of my time to making art instead of waiting for the pain to go away.

If you are interested in buying the little quirky book “The perfectly bizarre and fake Family Bell” you can see some the family without their stories they have to tell se the link below and order it on my Etsy shop or send $40 and your contact information to my PayPal